The Sidereal ship wasn’t going to wait.
It was now or never.
Fortunately hitting an ending inCitizen Sleeperdoesn’t mean the end of your save.
But despite absolutely beefing it in Flux, I also came to realise an important lesson.
Sure, it might not feel nice, and yes, I wish it could have gone better.
But sometimes the odds really are stacked against you, and you’ve just got to roll with it.
The setup has a pleasing sense of having come full circle in Citizen Sleeper.
It’s a tall order, and one you won’t (likely) be able to complete fully.
It all started out reasonably well.
I hadn’t actually been collecting any food up until this point.
At the same time, though, my credit reserves were dwindling fast.
All this was compounded by a sudden request from Bliss, who had another urgent repair job come in.
I was lucky here.
Gosh darnit, Bliss.
I was counting on some credits.
But then I got a call from Tala.
After a circuit-frying taster session that actually ended in a semi-decent drink, we toasted our success.
I’d solved my food problems for a spell, but my condition was worsening by the day.
I didn’t want to part with it, but needs must at this point.
I clicked out of my apartment, but who should show up but Bliss' assistant Moritz.
The day after I sold off all my scrap!
Gosh darn damnit, Bliss.
But even with a full stack of dice back in my hand, I now had another problem.
I needed to decide what nodes to pursue and which ones to ditch completely.
Success - and with only a single cycle to spare.
Alas, there was nothing else to be done at this point.
I’d made a lot of bad calls, thrown a lot of bad dice… And yes, the end result was not pretty.
She didn’t even manage to get the water onboard.
I wondered for a long time afterwards what I should have done differently.
Should I have healed faster?
Or could I have been smarter about what to target in the limited amount of time that I had?
But ultimately I realised that such deliberation was pointless.
As my Sleeper themselves concluded after the dust settled: “What is done is done.
No matter how many times you turn it over in your head.”
But there’s another reason why I’m glad I failed like this.
Now, though, it brought those smaller victories into sharper relief.
